(Please note: None of these photos are of my paintings. I found them beautiful and wanted to feature them in my post)
It has been so long since I have blogged. Okay, so now it's 2014. I am going to try and really make this my priority. Not because I have to, but want to. Not because I want to promote myself. So over that one. Never really was there. Listened to mindless people regarding that one. Life is not about the MASK we think we should wear or what others think we should wear. I can't believe I fell for that one several years ago and stopped really sharing my life here on my blog. I even deleted all my personal posts. A few people I meet along the journey are all about the masks that they wear. These days you don't even have to be a good artist, but if you promote and market yourself to no end, well, there ya have it! They don't care who they knock over in their path.
Read this yesterday -
"The most dangerous masks are often the ones that have brought us success in some way."
Now to my simple life
Trying hard to pick my colors, paint on canvas. Walls in my house are looking good these days. Easy canvas! But then comes the boxed canvas and I'm feeling quite stuck.
With Breast Cancer now in my bones, I am feeling a bit anxious to accomplish something that has meaning. Would love to leave something behind that speaks to others and I do believe God showed me what and how to do this.
Found out today, Susan, a friend, with the same type of cancer as me, departed earth November 1, 2013. We shared the same rare kind of BC. Made my heart and head spin. She was a really special soul. She carried me though this past week through a lot of pain. It was from recollection of when she encouraged me to keep focusing on the light at the end of the tunnel while going through chemo seven years ago. She truly lives on. I hope once I depart this earth, I could have a voice that keeps speaking, encouraging others someway, somehow.
So now what?
Going to figure out my pallet. Not going to give up. There is a painter within me, I just know it. Just got to keep doing, keep trying, keep living until I can't any longer.
Today I take off that "mask" of being afraid to be me, to share my truths, my struggles, hopes and dreams with the world. Today I feel an urgency to live my life authentically. Today I choose to be brave!!! I am going to truly live, today and all the rest of the days I'm a allotted. I hope you will too!