I title this piece "Why...Why?"
As many of you, this past week has damaged our heart; created some deep cliffs; sometimes not knowing if it's time to jump or to run forward. I'm one of those, indeed. Having been born in Connecticut, and raised there until i was sixteen, my roots are ever deep in a place I'll always call home.
Having experienced some heart turning experiences in my own life, remembering waking up in the mornings, questioning if this is for real? This past week, I wake up each morning, trying to place myself in the position of "the mom or the dad, or the sibling, the aunt, the cousin, so forth..." of one of these twenty children taken. I realize that this will never come close to what I thought was hard in my own life. My heart is wrenched with questions, with pain, and then there is love, compassion, prayers, tears...
In this piece I have somewhat of blank spaces, representing my questions and trying to answer them in my own head, my heart and the knowledge given to me.
Is it heart issues?
Is it gun control?
Is it mental illness?
mental illness: know all about this first hand. do i go into here...not sure. but trust me, i know, lived with it with my beloved step-son, diagnosed with paranoia schizophrenia/bipolar. loved this kid more than anything..psychiatrist visits, ICU visits, being humiliated by the school district..YES..and the CHurch..BIG TIME!!!
but what it really comes down to it, it is all about -
when i look at very old architectural buildings, what strikes me, is the conviction of the men's work in the detail. It shows the mentality of the people. Our country is young, and yet I'm impacted of the craftsmanship displayed just a hundred or so years ago. I can only imagine how I will feel if I ever get to explore ancient grounds. Think...just for a moment, what it took for these men to put that kind of labor into what they did. when i mediate on who they were, it makes me stop, contemplate, wonder...who were they and why? Are we now, a people like this? I think not, so far from it. i mean, come on, we are a people buying from China.
There is talk about how we took God out of our schools. We did! He is not invited in any longer. Last Christmas, my sister, who works for the public school district in California, was reprimanded for decorating her cubicle with words "Merry Christmas". Now you have to understand, throughout the office, every other religion was expressed, without notice.
Our American society has become so much about the "ME"!
when there was conviction in the hearts of men...
thy shall not kill...
students were taught this, from their teacher. It even hung on classroom walls.
students were taught this from thier fathers and their mothers
students were taught this from their neighbors
students were taught this every day of their life, by example...it was a way of life.
It showed in the "work" done every day, every day of the lives lived back then.
to me, explained...it was "living life" deomonstated through the "conviction" of men
where did that conviction come from...
in our Judeo/Christian Values...
my answer to my Why...why? we lost our way
God is love...love is God!
Jesus is the reason for the season...
sorry, that is not a clique, but for real.
either you belive, live it, or deny it...